So yesterday i hung out with a good friend who is about 4 1/2 months pregnant, I am so happy for her it is exactly what she wanted. I am volunteering to through her a baby shower because she is a close sweet person and a shower will help the couple celebrate bringing a new life into the world and will also help them get some necessities they will need. I am so excited helping plan it because i need something fun to distract me from wanting my baby. However i am not sure a baby shower is was the best idea.
So doing idea hunting has been a lot of fun but i keep finding myself think oh i want that for my future children and that would be so cute for a baby room, or that is something i need to remember for when i am pregnant. I feel my focus has changed to baby baby baby. Which wouldn’t normally be a problem for many women but with my PCOS history a baby simply might not be in the cards for me. What if i am setting myself up for a HUGE let down, I mean a plummet into a dark sad obis?
Today I am now on CD 44 and AF still isn’t in sight. I am not sure which is more frustrating telling myself not to get excited that I could with child or that if I am not that I will have to wait even longer before i can ovulate again. I find myself thinking that the little symptoms are that I am pregnant but those same symptoms are also synonymous with AF or pre-PMS. Ahhh I don’t want to set myself up for disappointment but I would be so bliss full and so would my husband. Some amazing news would be very suiting now. I am not sure how women can do this for years its only been about 8 months and I am already feeling a little baby crazy.
Anyone made it through or have some suggestions?