So last few days (2) have been ruff between me and my husband. Has the pressure of making a baby finally gotten to us. We have had a huge blow up then a crash and burn out. Here is my side of things, I was on such a high on Monday finally a positive on the ovulation test, dr said that there was a nice ripe egg ready to burst out. The news couldn’t of been better. When I got home and told the hubby I was like we need to do the deed, with a little resistance from him but we went and got it done in a very timely fashion. It was very necessary to be timely and quite because we where leaving to go floating down the American river and my niece was staying with us. It was a very nice time floating from 1230-630.
Day two,48 hours post positive OPK (yeah). You are supposed to time it out every 24 hours. So I ask the hubby are you ready… His answer NO, I am tired. ahhhhhhhh so utterly frustrating. Understanding that we had a busy day the day before I gave him some Time to rest. 5hrs later, how about now? Dragging his feet the whole way we attempted but no completion. 12 hours from the 24 hour mark a fair bit of yelling and fight about my frustration and extreme disappointment and with much luring we finally got it done. We made up from the fighting and relaxed till we fell asleep.
I am really feeling like I put a lot of work into getting to this point and its his turn to do his part and he is dragging his feet. Not only that but where is enthusiasm, there was not fore thought coming from him. I get that he is tired but its time there is no way around it that its time. Honestly i feel bad for him not being able to fallow through but there is no time for a petty party we both have to suck it up and take care of what is needed.
24 hours from the completion of the last deed which is 84hours from positive OPK and dr appointment. Are you ready i ask… response no! arghh really really i just couldn’t hold back my frustration and disappointment. But i did so i could get him to at least try, but trying didn’t work. I asked is there was anything we could try different and we tried different positions but it didn’t happen. So i thought lets take a break have dinner relax a bit more then come back to it. He agreed so we did. As we relaxed he started to drift asleep. Mind you i knew he was tired earlier in the day so i lured him into a nap. Well as we made it to the bedroom his content for the deed was ever so present and i just could take it anymore. He slept in another room and we didn’t speak till the next evening, i was too disappointed. I still am hurt and upset it was finally our shot and we may have blown it not to mention the stress on me wasn’t going to help the situation.
I truly feel bad for telling him how disappointed in him i am, i feel like i shouldn’t of told him that but at the same time i feel like he needed to know. Has TTC gotten the best of us.
I know we will recover from this but it wasn’t good timing. I have read about many couples experiencing the same thing but it seems like you are not supposed to talk about it, well i am. Its not pretty but its real.