TTC egg hunting

Happy Easter!

For all you TTCer’s out there I hope you are finding yourself and egg whether it be for ovulation or implantation.  I am currently hoping my uterus found the egg and is letting is snuggle into the nice thick lining today.easter egg hunt 2

Normally I try very hard not to watch for TWW symptoms but this cycle it seems like the “correct” dosage of trigger shot was felt across my body. While I am telling myself it is just the trigger shot it is hard not to be wishful that they may be the for real “my body is making its own HPT”.easter egg 3

Obvious symptoms:

Nipples are more tender than normal. I can normally pull pretty hard on my nipples and yank them around, now it hurts to squeeze them. Hmmm this may sound strange but when I have been TTC this long I have done some pretty strange things to myself.

Also the veins in both breast are (I think) darker and more evident. I even asked my hubby to these look different to you. He said no, and that he was the expert of them and they look normal.  So maybe it’s just me and the fact my skin is near see through as it hasn’t seen the lite of day in forever.

My dreams have been vivid almost every night this week.

 

I started the progesterone Friday night, four days later than I normally do so that I could check if I if I ovulated. Ii really hadn’t missed the progesterone for the last month.  Already it is making me nauseous!!! Why of why… my poor body is a roller-coaster   of pregnancy symptoms with no pregnancy.

Oh big thing the last few days I have really started to notice how my lack of exercise is affecting my body shape. My “spare tire” is moving south!!!! Danger Danger not good for myself esteem.  Though I am not gaining any weigh I think my muscle is turning to fat and that my skin is losing elasticity. Nightmare! But I will be upping my exercise now that it is spring time.

With all that in mind I hope everyone has a lovely day today while I am avoiding the Easter candy! Happy hunting~

Mrs. W

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spring time fun spring time fun

Well it has been a while since my last post and I have been rather MIA. Not sure if I have an answer as to why, I think my mind needed a break from TTC thoughts.

spring time fun

spring time fun

Though I have not halted my TTC in fact I had the most on record for follicle checks in one month (for me) I had four checks. The first front runner started on my left ovary which really excited me because I do not have any endometriose

s on my left tube or ovary (compared to the right ovary where I have endo on the tube). Strangely my left ovary has yet to really produce any viable follicle (she is lazy). But that excitement fade as the follicle slowly faded away. But spirits prevail and on my right I had one follicle developing nicely. Why she took an extra week to reach potential who knows (cold be a slew of reasons) but by Thursday she was 22mm(ish) so we triggered.

Shhh secretly I didn’t OPK as much this cycle. Again not real reason why but I just needed so peacefulness and not analytical thinking. I really listened to my body as I feel VERY aware of when I ovulate

these days , I am also aware I am not as accurate as OPK

or the Dr. but after 17months I think I am very in tune with myself.

Oh…I finally had hubby come back for what was my last of four follicle checks. While he is always there for the IUI’s I had never had him come in for a follicle check. This fourth time for the month I was thinking maybe it would be good for him to finally see how it works. Deep down I was hoping this could be the last one….(wishful thinking).

Key TTC finding this month : about 4 months ago I started to trigger at home which was no big deal except I had gotten bad directions so I wasn’t triggering the right dilution, meaning the my triggers where not as potent as they needed to be. No need to fuss though it is what it is, part of the unchangeable past. I think my OB was more upset than I was.  Moving forward I know the correct dilution of 1ml liquid to the dr

y solution and then all the of the new solution SubQ.

IUI was yesterday, and after six previous IUI’s its seems pretty routine now right??? Wrong!!! This time my regular OB preformed the IUI and for some reason my cervix wasn’t open enough to pass the tube through. I  have never had this problem before…. So she said sometime they have to clamp it so its straight. OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OOOOOOOh my gosh it was painful and super crampy all at once. This was far worse than any other procedure I have had done. Well sure enough the tip still wasn’t going through nicely so she had to unclamp and get some dilator then clamp again and ahhhhhhh that was the worst. It even bleed a fair bit. Wholly cow I guess it make since now when I read about some ladies having painful IUI’s.

My appetite was even strange yesterday; I eat two whole bagels with cream cheese when normally I can barely eat one. Bagels are our treat on IUI days. While we wait the 40-60minutes for the sperm to get washed we drive over to the nearby bagel shop for breakfast. I

was even hungry for lunch and dinner; I am blaming the trigger shot which is really a dose of pregnancy hormones.

A tasty looking bagel with cream cheese.

Cream cheese on a bagel.

Now we wait two long weeks, and focus on no stress.

First AF after LAP

So I started spotting (extremely light nearly nonexistent spotting) last wed and Thursday which is really strange for me because I normally don’t spot that far out. So then I started searching to see if others had posted about their first periods after Lap surgery (found out the term people use for the laparoscopy is LAP). Well most the post had be worried and with the worry I felt more prepared.  Lust about all the ladies said that there first AF after LAP was surprisingly horrible. They listed that there cramps where just as bad if not worse and the flow was just as heavy if not heavier than normal.

When Friday can BAMo. Wired nauseating cramps, they were not extremely painful just a dull uncomfortable cramping that lasted forever.   My flow was actually very minimal and now day four it is even more minimal than normal. The biggest side effect has been the feeling of constant exhaustion and lack of any motivation.

I have pretty lived on my couch that last few days. I am not proud of staying on the couch but it is all can get me to do. I have showered every day, went grocery shopping (Costco shopping), and a group meeting for school. But when I am home I do the bare basics which include the cats going in and out then feeding all the pets and then feeding me.  Today I am making big strides though I can picked up around the house in small burst. I applied for a few jobs online which was like pulling my teeth out to find jobs and then apply for them (only because I am completely discouraged with finding a job).

I did attempt to start the ENDO diet this week, which thus far has really been very unsuccessful. But I am not looking like it as a failure more that I am slowly (turtle pace) fazing in the diet. It is hard to cut out so much all at once. Here is a list of all the things you are “supposed” to cut out:

Dairy

Red meat

Caffeine

Sugar

Potato (white)

Processed food

Bread

There is a much longer list but those are the ones I am trying to work on. However the more I try and cut them out the more I find myself wanting them….go figure. I have never been a good dieter; I am such a food addict. Ahhhh I wish I had the will powers others do to do this endo diet. The way I look at it is if I can do this diet maybe i can get pregnant without the 14,000$ IVF. Though I then rationalize that others get pregnant eating all these foods (I like to rationalize everything).

Bigger news: OB gave me a script for Femara to we are a go for TTC this cycle…

Thanks for reading, hope you enjoyed-

my fellow couch potatoes

my fellow couch potatoes

Mrs. W.