Nightmares and Lists

Oh my goodness the dreams are so scary and cause such high anxiety. My nightmares have been all over the place, scary. They wake me up and then I don’t want to go back to sleep only to start the dream again so I usually get up and watch TV (bad TV) for a few hours then try and go back to sleep. Still dealing with some exhaustion and then combined with lack of sleep makes for a bored girl. I feel like I have so much to do and some days I do nothing.

I feel like I have been on modified bed rest for the first three months, reality I have been so lazy and bored but this week I have had a few days where I have energy and bust out some things around the house. Only to be wiped-out by late afternoon. I promise I will get this balanced out very soon.

I am not an overachiever at least I really wasn’t growing up, so this next part is not me trying to be an overachiever just me trying to calm my fears or anxieties. I made an excel spread sheet of all the baby items we will need/register for. one column is for where we would like to get the items from, another the price range for the item, a column for weather we will register for it or buy it ourselves or both, last column is to show which items we don’t really need for the first six months (in other words not as high of priority).

The first two columns are to help us when finding good deals from places like Craig’s list or store sales, and Facebook sites. I am also going to try and coupon for as much as possible, I have never done well with couponing but I sure would like to try, therefore this list helps me know where to focus on. I feel funny looking to register for the shower/holidays on one hand we really need all the help we can get on the other I don’t know how many or who can help and lastly I don’t like asking people to buy things for us.

Well that’s my little rant for the day, hope everyone is beating the heat and enjoying some summer time activities.

Cheers, Mrs. W.

i made it till 12 weeks

Well I have been a little MIA because I was so worried about if everything was ok and if my test would all be ok. In the end it was worry for nothing as everything is just fine. Heard the heart beat for first time but didn’t get a good image of the lil munchkin. Next week we have a translucency with a fancy OB office.

We were supposed to have some of hubby’s family over for the forth to announce the pregnancy. We bought a ice cream cake that said happy 4th grandma, well they all canceled at the last minute. I was ok with it because it meant not having to deal with all the hugs and tears and emotions on one of the hottest days of the year. Well hubby was very upset, understandable as he really wanted to tell them in person. Now we are trying to figure out how we will tell everyone. Funny when we first found out we want to call everyone and now we are trying to make it special for everyone. Ahh the stress of it, why do the people who are “closest” to us live all over the country. Why am I so nervous about telling people, even my own mom and sister?

Even social friends I want to tell I try and get it out but then I don’t. Its easier for me to show them cute baby cookies rather than say guess what I am pregnant. Is this normal? Maybe I worry that they are all going to hug me or cry and really I am not good with that attention or complement like congrats or I am so happy for you, because I just don’t know how to respond.

Other than all that things have been going as smoothly as one can be going with prego symptoms.

mrs. W

 

 

10 weeks- is this really happening

I am not sure this is real. Am I really 10 weeks, will I really make it to 12? This last week had been the worst for nausea, I though it was supposed to be getting better not worse. But what’s worse than the nausea is the skin itch. Some times my skin itches everywhere other times just my nipples or legs. Just like when I had the mosquitos bits, itching drives me crazy. I turn into a whinny grump itch-o-lot. My stress level was pretty high this week too. The more I tried to lower it I think the worse I made it. I took the advice of a friend went for a walk and meditated, but I combined the two. I feel much more “centered” when I am outdoors. When I cam back in, I found our kitten sleeping on my side of the bed so I climbed in and snuggled and took a cat nap with her. Moments like that I live for. After that my stress had been manageable. How far along: 10 Weeks Total Weight Gain: -4 lbs Stretchmarks: no new ones but I was feeling a lil bloated and could see ones that we nearly gone/invisbale Sleep: I fall asleep pretty easily now, but the last few nights I haven’t had any mid night bathroom trips. Best Moment This Week: bowling with the family for fathers day. Movement: not that I can feel. Gender: hopefully we will find out in two weeks (really hopeful but realistic) Belly Button: bottomless What I Miss: eating whatever and however much without having to really think about it first. Cravings: All over the place, this that and whatever I hear that sound good. What I am Looking Forward to: ultrasound in two weeks and three weeks. Milestones: just getting to this point is still huge to me.

week 9.5 food = not my freind

Ok is this strange, my doctor ordered a translucency ultrasound in week 12-14. I thought you did that in week 20. I mean I am ok with the chance to see our bundle of joy again and in high def, but wonder if it’s normal. On the plus we might find out the sex which will help me with my planning anxieties. Ok I did more research and it’s not all that uncommon to have an early translucent ultrasound for early detections.
I am pretty happy that we have had a rather problematic free week. Rather and not none is because I have a rash outbreak again on my inside thigh. Is it ring worm is it something else. 8 weeks ago an OB thought I had ring worm so I treated it and it went away but its back with a vengeance (much bigger). I need to call my GP to see what it is or if I can should or should not treat it until I am in my second trimester. I would like to not take anything that is not necessary as a precaution.
Oh you want to hear a funny story, yesterday I nearly spewed. We were in whole foods to pick up more prenatal they had my brand on sale plus 8$ off (still pricy). Really I wasn’t feeling 100% but I was ok till we rounded the corner by the cheese section. Oh it was bad. I nearly spewed it couldn’t get away from the smells and everything then smelt bad. Now things have definitely made me gag like those expensive prenatals but this was bad even thinking about it makes me nausea.
Nausea continues to be a theme today, I am not complaining because I haven’t had loads of constant nausea. I am also not complaining because it makes me know I am pregnant. Food aversion everything but learned my lesson for the second time not to eat salsa. But it looks so yummy and fresh in summer.
So happy to still be pregnant, I am cherishing every day.
Cheers,
Mrs. W

Sleep??? how do i get it.

I thought your supposed to get sleep in the early months…not me. I can sleep past 4-5-6 in the morning. What is going on, this morning it was 4AM when I couldn’t sleep anymore. I did get some sleep in after watching some TV. But I am tired and I feel extra hormonal. I cant even nap. What is going on. Lack of sleep does not help with my anxiety it makes it worse. Last night I thought I wasn’t pregnant anymore it felt like I wasn’t—I am going cray cray. But this morning I was looking for any symptoms and found some so I feel better except for lack of sleep.

I am very happy that the end of progesterone is in site one more week!

9 weeks and counting

Cheers, Mrs. W

How far along: 8 weeks 4 daysMe: Total

How far along: 8 weeks 4 days

Me: Total weight gain: -2 lbs as of yesterday (but its been +-2lbs)

Maternity clothes? Yoga paints, bought a belly band to try with jeans (as they are just not comfy on the belly)

Stretch marks? No new ones

Sleep? haven’t been able to sleep in past 630 since week 2

Best moment this week? Seeing heart beat and telling my dad.

Miss Anything? Not really, sometimes I want sushi..

Movement? Nope, just cramps (stretching)

Food cravings? It changes from meal to meal, Mexican, baked potato’s, Chinese, dinner salads. 

Morning Sickness? Nausea on and off, nothing consistent.

Anything making you queasy or sick? Brushing teeth, prenatal pills (swallowing pills), smells of cleaning products, dry dog and cat food.

Gender prediction? I hope for a girl hubby hopes for a boy, either way we are happy!

Labor Signs? None

Symptoms? sore boobs, nausea, exhaustion, cravings, not able to eat much in one sitting.

Belly Button in or out? In, lets face it I have a spare tire around my bellybutton so I think its stay put in there.

Wedding rings on or off? On, but it annoys me so I take it off often

Happy or Moody most of the time? Happy, but when I am exhausted I can get pissy quick. Like not finding what I want in my purse!!

Looking forward to? Next ultrasound where we can hear the heart beat and see it again.

Everythings ok

Called and went to OB. Everything looked fine, saw heart beat. Very happy news! Dr. and advice nurse said the spotting could just have been residual from sex spotting. which means I am not having sex again for at least 4.5 weeks or more when we are in a safer zone. I don’t want to relive today again.

Best news is that we are 8w4d, which is back on track to where I should be. Last week they said we were 5w6d. I guess my uterus is sitting back, so even during the first ultrasound today (yes there were two) I was only measuring 7w4d. Then we talk about my due date and I mention it keeps changing so she looked calculated from my IUI date and said I should be 8w1d. She looked concern so she want me to undress and do anther ultrasound and after a little pushing around of the wand she got a better image and a better size.

So now the official due date is January 14, 2013.

Blood work ordered for two weeks and I can stop progesterone in two weeks. Go back in 4 weeks for another ultrasound unless something comes up again. We will also do the consultation for pregnancy (fear that they label me high risk)!

All in all good appointment. Better than we could of asked for. Fears are put to bed for the time being.

Cheers,

Kristina Boswell